Anticipation

Despite the long enduring days that I kept withholding myself from anxieties that uncontrollably pour down gradually sinking down my faith into the mists of darkness, incidents regardlessly occur, which, struck me in realization that I am forfeiting what I long waited for. How can anticipation's reflection be its own rejection, its own disappointment… 

   
Of course nobody says its easy, as mixed emotions just carry you away from the core values everyone easily understands.

I just wish I was stronger, ready to leap on to an invisible rock.